Monday, January 10, 2011
the older we got the more frustration we going to face.i am 20 and im frustrated a lot. whats the reason? study said we worry a lot of thing that we shouldn't even need to worry.
1-whenever im depressed i try harder to think logically. listing everything in minds.
# girls problem... find another one..im still young and handsome, piece of cake. not desperate at all.
# friends...meet them and talk..settle in man 2 man talk.. easy...
# study...cannot understand a bit? i got friends.. drop the subjects of find a good teachers..study harder..
hard but not impossible.
#parents..meet them..slow talk..apologizes... easy..its all about your ego dude.
#family...same methods... miscommunication made it worse.
2-whenever im depressed..i talk way too much.. being a pain in a ass to my friends. tell them even they doesnt wanna listen. just talk and express it happily or mad. my roommate must annoy with me.. even the wall in my room annoy with me.. hahaha.. im even talk with my wall.. facebook wall or blogging relieved the frustation.
3-spirituality dude... one of the best way. talk to HIM. HE will listen.
its easy when we say it but hard when its comes to us right? that's why we need others to remind us.
p/s currently im totally in frustration mode.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Yup sure i like that.. sometimes i dont even realize that.. i becomes so cold and ignorance.. its happen...
back there when my family and i visit my grandma.im so excited and 'gile-gile' all the time.
then someday i change at sudden.. becomes cold,angry all the time and ignore everything around me.my family was freaked out and asked me what happen.. i got no reason. its continue for a week.
i guess i do have split personalities but i do remember what happen just i dont know how to explain.
and by the way..i do talking to myself a lot. i do hurting my knuckles a lot.
i can think only one reason... trauma being alone so much.